[Verse 1]
I just feel the need to say sorry
It ain't much, I fear, and my face worried
I munch on ideas when the pain's working
See myself as a kid and they're all looking
At me and they all judgin', all laughin', so funny
'Cause I'm neglectin' my friends around me
Wasn't even remembering today's your birthday
I was too busy laying chords way perfect
Think I'm 'bout to drown, I don't swim 'bove surface
They lie I'm too profound, wanna steal my sole purpose
Soul's purpose? Wait, I just write songs
And they perpetuate like wars, my whole focus
I've forgiven opponents, even Alex
So different roads chosen, rid of malice
And even those don't lead to good, so
Many motherfuckers wanna read my tombstone

[Hook]
I've been filling you up with these dark thoughts
You say ''Is it ok, will they all stop?''
I don't know, but let's go 'til the ball drops
I'm so sorry for the pain I brought upon
Write in you, ride for you, cry for you, oh
Lie for you, side with you, you lightin' my soul
Nothing even matters so say fuck it
Will you stay with me, my dear diary?

[Verse 2]
So I flip your pages like I don't already know
What they speak or say in ink I've wasted
But these mirrors are faking
Reflect on my past when I lived incubated
Through trials and tribulations as a child
Ask about ''What is love?'' I never felt it
My surroundings were dark, had to match 'em
And surviving was hard, you were either a star or a felon
So I gotta say thank you, you were always by my side
Through the fights with ammo, we divide, I left you
You define my level to be right and careful
So many nights cried with devils
And my demons still cry for me, oh, the irony
Reach for my wrist and try to fist fight with me
Will you die with me, my dear diary?

[Bridge]
I've been filling you up with these dark thoughts
You say ''Is it ok, will they all stop?''
I don't know, but let's go 'til the ball drops
I'm so sorry for the pain I brought upon
Write in you, ride for you, cry for you, oh
Lie for you, side with you, you lightin' my soul
Nothing even matters so say fuck it
Will you stay with me, my dear diary?

[Hook]
I've been filling you up with these dark thoughts
You say ''Is it ok, will they all stop?''
I don't know, but let's go 'til the ball drops
I'm so sorry for the pain I brought upon
Write in you, ride for you, cry for you, oh
Lie for you, side with you, you lightin' my soul
Nothing even matters so say fuck it
Will you stay with me, my dear diary?